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Primer & Grayscale

by Primer & Grayscale

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1.
Comedown 04:04
Where are You now? I'm not angry, just asking Because I want to believe and I think that I still do I know that You have power, I've seen the way it manifests Use it on Your servant, put breath in this chest again Because I know that You're still there, I feel Your presence every day Painting on the walls, growing in the gardens So why am I so scared? I feel weaker now than ever before This body that You gave me in faith, I've wasted it day after day And I became frail. I rusted in seas of resentment Calloused and mechanical, I gave up and lost contact But You took this engine, dismembered its pieces And I saw through the hole in my chest That I still have a heart underneath it Oh my God, won't You come down? Fix my broken eyes and make me see Oh my God, won't You come down? Make a useful servant out of me Oh my God won't You come down? Oh my God won't You come down? Oh my God won't You come down? I believe, now help my unbelief
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These shoes have some miles left before their soles wear out And I'm in a similar state A little bit worn and not pretty 'round the edges But my soul is still kickin' like a jackass in the rain The season's getting cold and the fields are all frozen in the sleet The fire's burning down so stoke the coals and huddle close for heat These hands have some strength left before their palms wear out And I'm not sure I feel the same I've been so many places that nothing seems familiar Now I'm anchored 'round the neck in a wasteland that nobody claims Teach a man to hunt and he'll sustain himself 'till help comes around But teach a man to drink and he'll drown himself slowly in the dregs of his grief I've been sitting on train tracks Just dreaming that they'd take me home To a place without air drenched in tension I see lights through the branches Beckoning me with their hands "Forget everything, don't even leave a memory" I look to the stars and reluctantly open my heart I feel worn and all I want is just to stay here But the voices outside are less loud than the ones in my head I can't focus, can't keep it all together So if I was an airplane, I'd fly just to find space to breath Without choking on the questions I can't answer Because I'm weak and I doubt almost every single second That everything I know could be true when it feels like its Not Even angry, just asking why I feel so scared? I'm catching rubble as the walls start to cave in But I don't even mind the boulders and kind It's the dust I'm not scared of death, just scared of being blind
3.
Who She Was 05:01
She said that the world is a box that's too small for me I can't take these walls anymore And I can't feel shit except for apathy I'm like a boat tied with rope to the shore I used to see people and know them just by looking Now they collar my throat and cut at my knees Because people aren't friends, they're just cages to lock me in And not even you could set me free I'm just tired of trying, I'm already done You say that you love me, but is this what you want? I'll slip into nothing, I'll die in your arms So I'm calling your bluff, baby, this isn't love I said "I'll wait till you find help, till you get better, babe" And she said "but I won't, because there's no help to find" And I said "why don't you try?" And she said "because I'm a quitter, babe And hope only helps till you realize you're blind" "My body's a hole that I am sinking in It gets deeper and darker each day The light in my tunnel was snuffed a long time ago There's nothing you can do, there's nothing you can say" I'm just tired of trying, I'm already done You say that you love me, but is this what you want? I'll slip into nothing, I'll die in your arms So I'm calling your bluff, baby, this isn't love And with tears in her eyes, she kissed my lips and she said That I keep her alive when she wants to be dead But there's just one thing that I could never understand: It's that nothing is real, it's always been in my head She said that the world is a box that's too small for me I can't take these walls anymore And I can't feel shit except for apathy I'm like a house without blood on its doors
4.
___ 01:00
I'd give up the earth and sky and every creature in the sea I'd let everything else die just to feel you next to me So I fold into your bed and now I'm losing sleep As I gain my greatest desire, but at the cost of losing me
5.
Candlelight 05:09
Hey, wait, is this where I make a conscious change In direction, so I don't make the same mistakes Please stay, because I can't shoulder all the weight Of the implications of every action that I take Maybe the rats won't eat away my chains And I'll just lie here and whither away Hey, babe, is this what you meant when you said "Fate, always gets the final say" I don't feel alright in the candlelight I'm thinking more about the bridge and not the other side I can smell the kerosene in the air tonight This place is gonna burn, I'm gonna light the fire The moon is keeping me awake But the darkness is only minutes away So turn off the light and tell me I should stay That this is just growing up and I shouldn't be afraid I don't feel alright in the candlelight I'm thinking more about the bridge and not the other side I can smell the kerosene in the air tonight This place is gonna burn, I'm gonna light the fire I don't feel alright in the candlelight I'm thinking more about the bridge and not the other side Every fever-laden dream is lying bare tonight I don't wanna feel alone, I wanna feel alive Maybe I'm just a little bit scared to die Before I find someone who loves me for the inside Maybe I'm just a little bit scared to die Because I don't wanna feel alone anymore I wanna feel alive Hey, wait, is this where I make a conscious change In direction, so I don't make the same mistakes
6.

about

This E.P. is about a lot of things, but it would be almost as accurate to say that is about "nothing" as it would be to say that it's about "everything." Most of these songs have to do with depression, spiritual doubt, and in general being discouraged in the search to know what is real, all of them are about real experiences in the sense that they happened, but often these real experiences are so intangible that its hard to quantify exactly what they really mean. In my search to know the truth about myself I've found that a lot of my doubts and insecurities have deep running parallels that are best expressed in song where their many realities can exist at once. Inevitably that means that most of these songs have several meanings under the most stated one, but all of them trying to articulate the nothingness that I felt when they were written, and to some extent still experience today.

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released January 9, 2016

All music by Primer & Grayscale except where noted.
All lyrics by Zack Bowman.

Zack Bowman - vocals, guitar
Dewey Fry - guitar
Forrest Larson - guitar
Ian Miller - bass
Adam Strapp - drums

Cameron Smith, additional instrumental writing on Comedown and Who She Was.

All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Forrest Larson except where noted.

Ryan Dowden, recording of drums for Who She Was and Candlelight.

All songs produced by Zack Bowman and Forrest Larson.

Artwork by Ian Miller and Zack Bowman.

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Primer & Grayscale is a lyric-driven indie/punk/emo band from Beaver Falls. We're dedicated to making art that is honest, heartfelt, and thought-provoking.

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